Holy Manna: February 22, 2023 (Ash Wednesday)

Holy Manna: A Lenten Devotional for St. Paul's Episcopal Church

Read: Matthew 6:1-6, 16-21

I find it amusing that the point of today’s Gospel reading is to not put on airs and make a huge deal about fasting, praying, and giving alms… and yet we are having ashes imposed on our foreheads as a sign of repentance for our sins. Oops! Maybe I should be rethinking the posting of the selfie with my #ashtag… I mean, a hashtag?

Still, getting together for worship as a community today is beneficial for us. The ashes are evidence of our acknowledgment of our sin, and doing it publicly keeps us humble. It would be easy to think that our sin is minor and doesn’t harm anyone… when the truth is that our sin harms other people and is a cancer growing in our soul. Some of us also need the reminder that *ALL* of us are sinners because it is also easy to beat up ourselves for our transgressions, no matter how minor, even after we have confessed them and been forgiven by God.

One of the things the priest will be doing during the service is to enjoin us to observe a holy Lent. Let us start by getting together today to acknowledge our sins… and the *GOOD NEWS* that we are *FORGIVEN* by God.

Almighty and everlasting God, you hate nothing you have made and forgive the sins of all who are penitent: Create and make in us new and contrite hearts, that we, worthily lamenting our sins and acknowledging our wretchedness, may obtain of you, the God of all mercy, perfect remission and forgiveness; through Jesus Christ our Lord, who lives and reigns with you and the Holy Spirit, one God, for ever and ever. Amen. (BCP, p. 264)
-Jen McCabe

Holy Manna: Holy Manna Scattered All Around

Holy Manna: A Lenten Devotional for St. Paul's Episcopal Church

Community has been something on my mind since college. I was part of a campus Christian group and a church that were very focused on it, and I feel like that was a good thing for me to figure out what I wanted in a parish after I graduated. I got married in seminary, went on Internship with my former husband, and then was a pastor’s wife through three parishes. The parishes all had their positive and negative points, and I feel like they each taught me something.

St. Paul’s seems to have the best qualities of all of those parishes. We jump in to help each other out in time of crisis, we all genuinely *LIKE* spending time with each other, and we are trying to make an effort to be engaged with the community. I had been thinking about doing last fall’s Advent devotional book on community, but I had to put those plans by the wayside. As I was thinking more about it in December, I realized that there are multiple aspects of community that could be explored, so our writing prompt turned into a “choose your own adventure” type of thing.

The plan became…

February 22-25 Fasting/Prayer/Alms
February 26 – March 4 Temptation
March 5-11 Love
March 12-18 Shame
March 19-25 Disability/Healing
March 26 – April 1 Mourning
April 2-8 (Holy Week) Leadership

Each week has seven days based on the same passage with the exception of the first week (only four days) and Holy Week which has a different passage every day.

The name of this devotional book comes from the name of the tune that is used for the hymn ”Brethren We Have Met Together”. It is a shape-note hymn from the 19th century that implores the “brethren” and “sisters” to pray for and support each other. Every verse ends with a phrase like “holy manna scattered all around”. It has been stuck in my head the whole time I have been working on this devotional book, so I thought it was fitting to make it the title.

As always, we have a YouTube playlist of music that goes along with this devotional book. You can find it here.

Finally, this devotional book is dedicated to the memories of Dottie Evans and Charlotte Burnham, two special women who passed away this winter. Dottie was one of the first two people to welcome me to St. Paul’s when I walked in the door in June 2016, and she was my cheerleader for everything. Charlotte was one of our Zoom parishioners, and I am incredibly grateful that she offered to be one of my devotion writers for this book. Both of them will very much be missed.

Blessings to you this Lent!
-Jen McCabe

My Soul Rejoices: Acknowledgments

My Soul Rejoices

The picture of the statue of Mary taken by DDP at Notre Dame des Oliviers in Murat France. It was sourced from Unsplash.Com.

I owe the existence of this devotional book to Carol Treston and Vicki Wesen who helped me get some clarity when I was feeling so burned out and having a lack of inspiration. Thank you, ladies. I cherish your presence in my life.

Thank you from the bottom of my heart to all the devotion writers: Marilyn Allen, Fr. Keith Axberg, Michael Boss, Barb Cheyney, Kathy Fleck (Sister Katharine, OSB), Cathey Frederick, Acacia Kimball, Fr. Paul Moore, Natalee Raymond, Nicole Smith, Ashley Sweeney, Mary Ann Taylor, Carol Treston, Fr. Jonathan Weldon, Rev. Vicki Wesen, Penny Worrell, and Tom Worrell. Y’all inspire me, and I enjoyed reading your work in the process of assembling this project.

Blessings to you as you celebrate the coming of Christ!
-Jen McCabe

My Soul Rejoices: December 25, 2022

So [the shepherds] went with haste and found Mary and Joseph, and the child lying in the manger. When they saw this, they made known what had been told them about this child; and all who heard it were amazed at what the shepherds told them. But Mary treasured all these words and pondered them in her heart. – Luke 2:16-19

“Oh, but you didn’t have to!” How many times has a gift I gave been greeted by those words! And my standard reply is not really very standard: “If I had to it wouldn’t have been a gift.” I know I miss the point. They mean to express unexpected joy and gratitude. (I’m hiding my dumb luck at having stumbled on just the right gift.) In another sense, I don’t miss the point. Gifts are given freely or not at all.

We’ve been reading all Advent long about two parallel songs of women whose sentiment toward God is similar. Hannah, childless until she conceives Samuel, the last and greatest of the judges of the Old Testament, bursts forth in song at the gift of what didn’t have to be. Mary, chosen by God to be the Mother of God, when it could have been most anyone else, bursts into song. The fact of the gift (rather than nothing) and the fittingness of the gift (when it could have been otherwise) give rise to unexpected joy and gratitude.

And perhaps it goes deeper still. There is wonder; wonder at a gift freely given, and therefore truly a gift, and exactly fitting, for it was precisely what we most needed. I wonder when I think that God actually takes the cosmic risk of giving people the freedom to reject their own Source so that any relationship between them and the Source could be freely given and received. If I were more capable, a song would be fitting. And there is more. I wonder that God would hide divinity in a human face so we would understand. I wonder that God would hide in our faces as we face one another.

It just didn’t have to be that way—and yet it is.

(As a prayer, imagine yourself in a place that inspires wonder and ponder the gift God didn’t have to give.)
-Fr. Paul Moore

My Soul Rejoices: December 24, 2022

My Soul Rejoices

“He has helped his servant Israel, in remembrance of his mercy, according to the promise he made to our ancestors, to Abraham and to his descendants forever.” – Luke 1:54-55

The Bible is the book that tells the story of God’s faithfulness and mercy to His people who did not always follow God as they were instructed. We all remember the story of God coming to Abraham and telling him that he would have a son when his wife Sarah was barren.

“I will establish My covenant as an everlasting covenant between Me and you and your descendants after you, to be your God and the God of your descendants after you.” -Genesis 17:7

We remember the stories of the crossing of the Red Sea, the wandering of the Israelites in the desert for forty years where they whined about the manna, worshipped the golden calf and wanted to go back to Egypt because they remembered “the good old days”. But God was faithful and merciful and kept the covenant He had made with Abraham and his descendants despite the unfaithfulness of the Israelites.

This season of Advent, we focus on God’s gift of His Son Jesus who was born in a manager and became man to fulfill God’s plan. He died for us so that we can have both an abundant and eternal life.

As Mary magnifies the Lord in this passage for fulfilling his promises, so I truly feel overwhelmed when I think how God has worked in my life. Like the Israelites, I have wandered off, done my own thing, but He has always been faithful and forgiving to me. Many a time I have reached out to God when life has been unbearable AND every time, He has provided a way out. My desire is to live a life that magnifies God in everything I do, making a difference in my community.

Dear Lord, help me to magnify your Holy Name in everything I do. Thank you for you for faithfulness and mercy, shown to me every day. Amen.
-Marilyn Allen

My Soul Rejoices: December 23, 2022

My Soul Rejoices

…he has filled the hungry with good things, and sent the rich away empty. – Luke 1:53

One look at my calendar for the next month and it’s any wonder I’ll have time to sleep: assorted birthday and holiday parties, medical appointments, watching twin granddaughters for four days, multiple meetings, caring for my elderly mother, church responsibilities, and a looming deadline on my new manuscript. Oh, yeah, and Christmas. It seems more like the hurry season than the quiet, spirit-filled waiting season of Advent.

This passage from Luke seems to be more about our spiritual lives than anything having to do with physical hunger or riches. I don’t know about you, but when I enter a sanctuary—like I did three years ago, visiting no less than fifty Italian churches and cathedrals and basilicas—I have an immediate and complete sense of calm, of wonder, of awe. It is as if an invisible cloud envelops me and my sense of time is dulled. I am in the very presence of the Lord, open to His leading (this phenomenon can also happen at the seashore or in the deep woods, high atop a mountain or, yes, even wandering in the desert. It is the feeling of being on holy ground).

When I am fully aware of being in God’s presence, I am open and ready for all the blessings He bestows. He fills me with so many “good things,” too many to count. But if I’m too busy to acknowledge His presence, I come up empty, every time.

I will try to remember my own advice the next time I’m in the aisles at Safeway or waiting at a red light on Burlington Boulevard. Every moment of every day we are in God’s presence, and He meets us where we are, ready to fill souls hungry for His Word and His Love. It is when we ignore Him that we are like the rich man sent empty away. It is up to us to be open to the Lord’s abundant grace. He is always there.

Thank you for being present in our lives, even when we seem too busy to realize it. Amen.
-Ashley Sweeney